Ramble..

We’re entering our final week here in C’wood. It’s been a good relaxing time and I feel I earned it before going back to the hectic and chaotic lives of the Navy. One will always wonder what happened to make things go haywire and is there a light at the end of the tunnel. Because people are losing faith in the organisation. Their welfare is not taken care off, not looked after. People are losing lovers, fiancees, husband and wife are divorcing. Just because they barely spend time together anymore and that work is at the forefront not giving them the time of day to watch their children grow.

During a night study a few months back, I think they presented a case where the statistics of army personnel getting a divorce nowadays are getting higher and that it is usually couples that are within their five years of marriage. But what they failed to do was link that statistic to the reasons that are in actuality causing the breakups. The unorganised and inefficient work that they were and still are detailed to do. It’s saddening. We, the lower power chain, can’t do much than say ‘Stay tough’ and ‘Hang on’…

On the other hand, I can’t wait to go back and be at sea again.. I feel one with it.. What I know is what I feel and sometimes, many times I do not want to go back ashore.. It’s weird.. If Waterworld were real, then maybe I’d be at sea all the time.. Ha~

Two of my good friends are here, doing the same course we’ve been doing. One of them a man who has my half of my heart and recently tore it up.. I guess it was too good to be true. But I couldn’t hang him on a life sentence without a decision though. He moved on and so I have to let him.. It all hurts the same, I didn’t know how much I loved him until now.. But no matter what, he’ll always be my guy. I guess..